My Fasting regrets

Over the past week I’ve been sick with the flu then bronchitis, and I’ve been completely unable

to Fast. As I wouldn’t have been able to in the first place, one might think this wasn’t too big a deal, but it is. Fast isn’t just about a abstaining from food and drink from sunrise to sunset, it’s about spiritual cleansing, about clearing out your head to prepare for the New Year, soon approaching, and thus far I’m not feeling very fresh. My mind is still too cloudy, my spirit too stained and my health is a big question as my sugar levels have begun to drop and my units-per-shot ratio has skyrocketed. I need to find a way to Fast in some capacity in order to achieve these ends; because, it’s important to be centered as you approach a new year. There’s necessity in knowing that you’re prepared for the restart of the calendar, and a resuscitation of sorts that will provide that restart. I need to find it. Perhaps this weekend my health will improve similarly to what is going on now. My coughs have decreased their violence and frequency, and my chest and lungs are feeling much more relaxed and pain free. With these steps, perhaps I’ll have a couple of days to Fast in my own way to prepare for the fast approaching new year.

Actually, lately, I’ve been thinking about divesting my time in the diet that I was on when

I was getting my cholesterol checked; no solid food for 24 hours, sticking to juices and jello. The process will hopefully have a similar effect to what others around me are feeling around this time. That their lives will begin anew on Naw Ruz, and they will feel accomplished in doing so. It’s something I plan on attempting if, as I’ve described above, things continue to progress in the ‘right direction.’