I think I need to stand out in the cold for a few hours

Something is going to happen tonight or the next, and I'm not all too happy about it. It may sound like I've

been mauled by the envy bug...and you'd probably be right; I have to a certain degree.

Now, I'm twenty two years-old, and I've been pestered for the past four years to look out for a wife. I'm also

the oldest in this family of three kids. Thing is, after this "extravagant event" to come, I know I won't be the first to marry. It scares me.

Here's me, going out with Meghan, a wonderful girl whom I care for, but is that it? Is that where I should be

right now? Perhaps a year, two years ago; yes. I would be the first to say that being in a relationship would be perfect, yet I have this year left in school before I graduate and join "the world." Shouldn't I be considering all that? Timing, planning, applying for jobs, figuring finances and elevating the financial burden I am on my parents. The things I had thought were of the utmost importance matter not, and are replaced by these thoughts of kids, apartments, and overstuffed, red armchairs. My life is changing in tune with my sister's, the second-born middle child, who is about to get engaged to a great guy whom I approve of.